a 1-minute self-absorption

Intended for decoration ^^

Having reached this age, I still get this; "Oh, you're in college? I thought you were 16!" And I would go like -_-") for a second. Obviously the people here can't guesstimate our age just by looking. I guess having a beard doesn't help in telling that I'm old enough to get married either. It's no biggie actually, why make a fuss out of it..haih. In fact, I should be happy that I look younger on the outside, shouldn't I? (hoho) All the high schoolers I'm friends with are much taller, bigger, sturdier, handsomer than me, and their beards, Subhanallah, three times as big. Well check out what they eat for breakfast: Loaf breads with cream cheese (packets of them). I feel I'm getting fat just at the sight of it. I doubt if they could see the word "mature" written on my face at all. But ironically speaking, being mature has little to do with age; It's not about how long you have lived, but it's about how you behave, think, and react accordingly. Believe me, I've seen a 50-year-old who acted like a child, and it's not a good sight at all. Another definition of being mature would be being ready to take on the responsibilities that come along as you grow older, something I'm still untiringly working on. So, I really wish that this increase in age comes with an increase in taqwa, wisdom, good deeds, and closeness to Allah swt. Otherwise, getting up another level in age does not signify any good, right? And to mom, no matter how much beard I've grown, how many digits I have added to my age, I'm still your sweet little boy.

P/s: And..I insist on keeping, to some extent, this childlike nature of mine. :D

I'm sorry

I'd like to apologize to you..

• whom I made promises to that I didn't keep.
• whom I've given hopes only to crush them later.
• whom I didn't stand up for when I should.
• whose expectations I have failed to meet.
• whose resources I have spent to waste.
• whose company I've taken for granted.
• whose feelings I have hurt.
• whom I've put in an awkward position due to my lack of control over my feelings.
• whose sincerity I have doubted.
• whose trust I did't fulfill.
• whose feelings I didn't return.
• whose cuteness I can't resist?

I'd like to apologize for..

• not making the best of the chances I had.
• having been slacking off and not studying hard enough.
• spending on things I don't need.
• letting my gaze wander off.
• getting in the way when I'm not supposed to.
• not voicing out the truth when I should.
• not calling home often enough.
• not being of much help around.
• not being much of a good muslim, servant, dai'e, leader, son, brother, friend, student, JPA scholar, housemate, lab partner, blogger..oh, MySA member! (if I'm still considered a member ^^")

So..are my apologies accepted?

finally~

I knew something was not right! Hehe. Alhamdulillah, hopefully everything will work out smoothly after this. Tell the world I'm coming home, insyaAllah.

Click on the image to share my joy.

P/s: Phew! I'm a happy guy now. Hm..rasa macam nak belanja seseorang pun ada nih. =)

seratus

Si cantik manis dah dapat adik! Hanis dah jadi kakak sekarang. Kakak kenalah jaga adik kan. ^^

P/s: Tiba-tiba rasa ingin dikerumuni oleh kanak-kanak. Haha. ^^"

souvenir from Syracuse

An independent little lady who is not afraid of anyone. She's quite an entertainer..and sweetly talkative. Too bad I didn't get her name.

The way she mixes up her Urdu and English is just so cute. I still can't get over this little girl. I have a hunch that she's gonna become some great muslima in the future..insyaAllah. =) By the way..we didn't find her, she found us.

inikah summer?

"musuh utama"

So the five week long Summer quarter has begun. By the looks of things, these five weeks to come are gonna be hectic and quick (I hope). I've got a LOT to do in a very limited amount of time. At first I really2 doubted if I could get myself in the "mood" to study this Summer..but for the sake of getting everything over with real quick, I went for it anyway. I think one of the things that really helps in keeping me going right now is the thought that I'll be going back to Malaysia in a few weeks..(haiz..) Lets see..two lab reports to be handed in next week..and there is Chem Sep Exam 1 to prepare for as well. Hm..the thing is, I barely understood what Dr. Craig taught in class today. Oh Chemistry! To be honest, I've never looked forward to taking another Chemistry lab since I took Organic Chemistry labs long long time ago. I like Biology labs way way better. Ya Allah, look at this servant of yours who won't quit complaining. Ok, enough of this luahan perasaan..it's time to get to work. Actually it's not that bad at all..it's just me being dramatic here. Ok lah..wishing all those that are stranded here in RIT a great & smooth-flowing Summer quarter..ameen. =)

p/s: Penat main tukar2 bateri iClicker kat belakang kelas tadi..huhu..

it's Lackawanna again

Assalamu'alaikum!

This will be just a very short post insyaAllah since I'm leaving for Lackawanna in an hour for this month's khuruj. There is one jama'ah going out next week as well to accommodate the brothers who can't go this week. Alhamdulillah..I'm done for the quarter. Quite a long break I have ahead and as always, I know I'm gonna have a hard time figuring out what to do. The atmosphere here is getting exciting (for certain people) since many have left or are leaving for our beloved home country, Malaysia. And to my friends, Mael and Wae, whose flight is due this Sunday, may you guys have a sound journey home. Hm..it seems like I'll be coming back to their absence..I don't even get to send them fly..huhu. Nevermind, my turn will be up soon..=) By the way, I was talking about how I was gonna fill my holidays..well, I think finishing this novel would be a good start to that;

one dollar bill as a bookmark, how cool is that?

This is a novel by Dr. Laurence B. Brown, a famous Muslim revert who used to be in the US military. He's got an amazing story of discovering Islam, which I find very inspiring and moving. I like reading novels, especially those with investigative genre..I just love the thrill. During my preparation years in INTEC UiTM, I would spend some time in the library browsing novels by Agatha Cristie, a legend in the writing of investigative stories. By far I've read almost a dozen of her collections, and are looking forward to enjoying more of them. This "The Eighth Scroll" is my very first novel that I bought here in the US. I'm just a couple of pages through actually, but it's caught enough of my attention to read it all the way through. It is a piece of writing dedicated to Him swt, so it says in the book. Well you see..sometimes hearing those stories about how people finally found their ways to Islam does help you in your iman. It also makes you realize how a great thing it is to have been born as a Muslim..so, lets do our best to appreciate this treasure we have. I guess that's it for now. Insyaallah I'll write about the karkuzari from my coming khuruj. Till then..Assalam..

quickie

Pejam, celik, celik, pejam..dah habis Winter quarter. Memang bagus sistem Quarter nih nak dibandingkan sistem Semester, swift jer..budak-budak tak sempat nak malas dah habis. Tapi kes aku lain sikit, aku tak sempat nak rajin quarter dah habis..hehe. 3 finals minggu depan, lepas tu insyaallah nak setelkan masalah tiket yang dah terbengkalai, kalau tak Nadzmi balik sorang-sorang la jawabnyer. Risau pulak nanti kalau dia di apa-apakan..haha. Nadzmi ni dah jadi housemate aku sejak aku mula-mula masuk INTEC dulu, sebelum aku kenal usaha ni, dah 4 tahun pun. Memang kamcing, dia tau perangai aku aku tau perangai dia. Aku doakan yang terbaik untuk dia dan kawan-kawan aku yang lain. ameen.

Sedikit update usaha tempatan, hujung minggu ini, bersamaan sekarang, beberapa brother keluar ke Buffalo dalam jema'ah masthurat, atau dalam bahasa inggerisnya, ladies effort. Jadi brother2 yang dah kahwin and ade family tu jela yang pergi, yang belum kahwin tu kenalah tinggal kan..(kesian) Lagipun kitorang nak kena bersedia untuk final exams ni. Aku pun tak berapa nak faham usaha masthurat ni macam maner, tapi yang aku tau usaha ni memang sangat-sangat halus dan sensitif, yelah melibatkan kaum perempuan kan. Time mesyuarat halaqah beberapa minggu lepas ade jugak bincang pasal usaha masthurat. Time tu ada sorang brother bacakan tertib yang dikirimkan terus dari Nizamuddin. Kitorang ni dengar-dengar macam tu je lah, maklumlah belum berkelayakan..segan pulak nak bersemangat sangat..=) Tapi rumusan yang aku ingat dari mesyuarat, bukan semua couple layak untuk keluar jema'ah masthurat..banyak faktor yang perlu diambil kira sebelum satu pasangan ni boleh dikatakan layak keluar jema'ah masthurat. Tu jelah yang aku tau, bagi sesiapa yang lebih tahu dialu-alukan untuk tambah.

Itu je kot. Tak boleh panjang2 sebab nanti tak jadi "quickie" dah. Bagi sesiapa yang tengah bertungkus lumus baca buku atau powerpoint slides tu, selamat membaca ye. Assalamualaikum.

loves to LOVE

Don't get too attached to worldly loves..for they are transient and filled with disappointments.

Only one love is worth giving everything for..the love for The One who loves you the most.

None loves you like He does..=)

p/s: nasihat untuk diri dan semua

dia kekasih Allah

Malu rasanya mengatakan cinta

Kepada dia kekasih Allah

Kerana dia insan mulia

Sedangkan diriku insan biasa

Selagi upaya ku turuti ajarannya

Apa terdaya ku amalkan sunnahnya

Moga di dunia mendapat berkat

Di akhirat sana beroleh syafaat

Sesungguhnya apa yang ku dambakan

Adalah cinta Allah Yang Esa

Kerana cinta kepada Rasulullah

Bererti cinta kepada Allah

Rasulullah kami umatmu

Walau tak pernah melihat wajahmu

Kami cuba mengingatimu

Dan kami cuba mengamal sunnahmu

Kami sambung perjuanganmu

Walau kita tak pernah bersua

Tapi kami tak pernah kecewa

Allah dan rasul sebagai pembela

(Extracted from: "Dia Kekasih Allah" & "Rasulullah" by Hijjaz)

surah 'Abasa

Yet another powerful, emotion-filled recitation by Sheikh Muhammad Al Luhaidan.
He has a God-gifted talent. It just melts me down each time I listen to his recitations.
Look him up on YouTube! =)

soul feeder!

I guess we could use some ear warming & heart soothing.
Great recitation of Surah An-Nazi'at by my favorite Syeikh Muhammad al-Luhaidan;

Say Subhanallah!

cheer me on

These few days have been tough.
I only have myself to blame of course.
Just a few more days to go and
I seem to have lost my study spirit.
Dunno how to get it rekindled.
Come on self, you can do it.
Regroup! regroup! regroup!
Please get thru these critical seconds alive.

penat

Ya Allah. Penat giler harini. Inilah akibat suka menangguh kerja, badan sendiri yang sakit. Cell Phys Report yang sepatutnya mengambil masa seminggu untuk siap (dengan berkualiti) disiapkan dalam hanya satu hari. Tak sampai pun sebnanye. Bila fikir pulak pasal Genomics lagi lah tambah pening. Harap semua berjalan lancar. Minggu last ni rase lame semacam je. Seperti orang-orang lain di RIT, aku pun dah tak sabar nak cuti. Tapi bila dah cuti tak tau nak buat ape pulak. Minggu depan minggu kitorang keluar 3 hari. Bagus pun, bulan lepas dah burn khuruj pasal exam. Harap kali ni semua berjalan lancar dan rapi. This week has been rough. But I can still manage a smile..=) (see?)

Salam.

"Bungkus"

RITans are wrapping up the Fall Quarter.

I am slightly behind the schedule I guess.

Need to catch up quick.

Let's wrap it up nice! =)